So over this. So tired of this. You do nothing to make me happy all you do is put me down. You yell and yell as I sit there trying hard each time not to break down and tell you I hate you. You make me feel ugly and unwanted. You are the opposite of what a boyfriend should be..especially after 3 years. You lie, your selfish, you’re just overall rude and I’m tired of it. I feel like I’m wasting myself on you. I try SO hard to be a good girlfriend and do all these small things to please you, yet you do nothing like that for me ever. Why should I use all my love on someone like you when I could be using it on someone 10x greater? I’m wasting my love on someone whose never going to care as much as I do. I want to give you the ring back because I feel like it means two different things to us. To you it’s just a ring I asked for but to me it’s more. It’s more personal and has more feeling associated with it. I don’t expect you to understand any of this because for the past year or so you’ve been incapable of understanding my feelings. And that’s driven me away from you big time. Each day you show me more and more of your true colors and each day I’m more disgusted with you. And with myself for ever falling in love with you in the first place, glad to say I’m realizing how dumb I’ve been and I’m finally starting to get over that phase. Remember when I was the one who fucked up and you said you would never love me the same again? I didn’t think you were telling the truth but I know now you were. You haven’t loved me the same for so long and in return it’s made me not love you the same either. Yes I care about you and I want you to do amazing things with your life because your capable of it. But you don’t give me butterflies anymore, you don’t make me smile anymore, you don’t make me happy anymore. Not in the way people who are “in love” should make each other feel. I know I haven’t been perfect and I guess some of this strain is my fault too but I can only try so many times to convince you to fix things before I start to need convincing too. Who knows, maybe in a year or so we’ll find our way back to each other and things will spark like they did before. But for now..it’s better to just leave the pieces on the floor and walk away.
I love you more than life itself but I can’t be in a relationship where after everything we’ve been through you cant say the same about me.
